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Never stop @rrrudya reporting from #Berlin for the #Burndiary. I still remember the feeling when I was leaving Berlin in 2007 after a year spent there without knowing if I will ever come back. After the plane took off, I looked out of the window and as we were flying away I could see Berlin’s famous TV-tower shining in the light of the setting sun. I cried. For two years I wasn’t living – I was waiting to come back. It is a very exhausting feeling – to wait for your real life to start. I got my MA in journalism meanwhile, but I also knew that I only have one life to live and I don’t want to spend it adjusting to the circumstances only to get a mid-life crisis at the age of 30. When I was accepted to a #photography program and finally got my visa, I was the happiest person on Earth. For the first couple of hours. Then I understood, that it is not the accomplishments, which satisfy me, but the feeling of having a GOAL. My grandpa, who grew up during the war, once told me, that his goal at the time was to eat enough bread. He grew up, studied really hard and got an ingeneering degree from the best technical university in Kiev. Then, at the age of 28 he fulfilled his childhoods dream – he had enough bread to eat. He was very proud of accomplishing his goal, but he stopped dreaming. He is still alive now, aged 85 and he is a great man, who lived a life full of hard work and tragic losses (he outlived both of his sons- my uncle and my father), but he never tried harder than he did back in the 50s, when he was a hungry 20-something young man from a small village with one pair of shoes and no money. As for me – I cannot stop dreaming. As soon as I get what I want, I set a new goal and then a new one and this is how it will be till my last day. Dreaming is what keeps my life meaningful. Working for my dreams is what makes me ME. Never stop #lifegoal #inspiration #symbolic #thattoweragain #fernsehturm